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What am I afraid people will see if they really look at me?
The fearful child inside me that never got the chance to chase her spark before it was extinguished. The insecure teenager that internalized not fitting in as a source of shame and proof she was the wrong kind of different. The shell of an adult who never got to cultivate the essence of who she…
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A healthy brain
The genie grants you a wish. What is it? View all responses Mental illness has created such chaos and what seem like insurmountable obstacles. I’d like to know what it feels like to step into the world without such paralyzing fear. To chase after ideas and follow inspiration without looking around every corner. Oh how…
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Relief again
While having success with the ketamine I experienced some regression in my PMDD symptoms and depression. However with some adjustments I am back on the right track. This month my debilitating symptoms attributed to my PMDD have not show up like clock work. What a relief to not experience the all consuming depression and heartbreaking…
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I am Resilient.
You always wish that you could be resilient, all the battles you will face will become proof that there is no other expression that describes you best.
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I kept hitting a wall with traditional psychiatric medications.
In the midst of an almost 3 year long depression that left me reluctantly clinging to life, I decided to try ECT (electroconvulsive therapy). Unable to afford the IV Ketamine that kept the suicidal ideation at bay. I felt I was left with no other choice. While ECT took an emotional toll every time I…
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Where I was.
I stayed another day… now what? I chose life. A decision I’ve made over and over again. However, for so long I’ve existed with one foot in the grave, a physical body alive but void of any semblance of life. An anger and desperation lived in the place peace had long been evicted from. I’d…
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